warning- angsty post ahead.
just these 24 hours have seemed like forever. another accounting proj that loomed and lingered, and yet there was a whole lot of shit to deal with.
and now, i have yoko yoko in my eye. fuckk.
what makes me fall makes me even stronger. but before yu can take that step and put it behind and take it as a learning lesson, theres always that low. it makes me so jaded right now. for a place ive put a considerable amount of time into. its just time to take a step back alr. just a few people matter. i cant expect more. with everyone else, im not gonna be bothered about what yu guys say anymore. i do what i want. go fucking judge for all i care. come to conclusions without knowing everything, and im just gonna become immune to all these.
i guess i gave in to another moment of weakness as i like to call it. but i guess with a friend whom yu just treat as a friend, yu do what friends do, talk to each other sometimes. be there for each other and if this isnt your view of it, then what friendship is there? fuck yu. i aint gonna miss-nice-girl anymore.
so bsc's over and theres just 215 and 214 left. arghh.
im so drained. ive had not much sleep in 2 days and i feel like just sleeping for 2 days straight. no photos for now. im tired.
and im freaking broke. boo.
just these 24 hours have seemed like forever. another accounting proj that loomed and lingered, and yet there was a whole lot of shit to deal with.
and now, i have yoko yoko in my eye. fuckk.
what makes me fall makes me even stronger. but before yu can take that step and put it behind and take it as a learning lesson, theres always that low. it makes me so jaded right now. for a place ive put a considerable amount of time into. its just time to take a step back alr. just a few people matter. i cant expect more. with everyone else, im not gonna be bothered about what yu guys say anymore. i do what i want. go fucking judge for all i care. come to conclusions without knowing everything, and im just gonna become immune to all these.
i guess i gave in to another moment of weakness as i like to call it. but i guess with a friend whom yu just treat as a friend, yu do what friends do, talk to each other sometimes. be there for each other and if this isnt your view of it, then what friendship is there? fuck yu. i aint gonna miss-nice-girl anymore.
so bsc's over and theres just 215 and 214 left. arghh.
im so drained. ive had not much sleep in 2 days and i feel like just sleeping for 2 days straight. no photos for now. im tired.
and im freaking broke. boo.
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 3/30/2007 10:31:00 pm | Put your comment here
so, its been a long hell of a week. the worst week of the sem so far had passed. and i can take a short breather for now. last week, with pbl and the tv commercial assignment due, it was hell. no sleep since monday night all the way till friday. i cant believe i survived on barely a total of 4-5 hours of sleep out of 96 hours. im amazing, or so i feel. but i felt slightly disoriented too. sorry troy, couldnt meet yu on wed. and so, we still havent met up since sidney's party when we were supposed to meet the week after. hehh. but well, there was ih thank you dinner on thurs as well. dont have much to say about that man. and filming the commercial was tough. although the scenes were simple, it was so hard trying to think of a concept for the ice wine. and then there was the editting part. fitting the different scenes together, cutting out unwanted parts, and making it fit within 30 secs. thanks joyce, bear, grace and sandy for helping me act. :) and pbl was due as well. and i must say im quite proud of that. a group project for which i did almost 70% on my own. and it was all excel, computation, formula shit. woohoo. thurs was grace's 21st as well. and we celebrated on wed night first. the day i broke down from the whole shit of stress. sorry friends for taking it our on yu guys.
to complete her celebration, we went to the zoo zoo zoo. :) got the pics alr, but ill upload another time. i was glad to go there. last destination to replace memories with other ones. and it felt good. :) finally. everything gone. a tinge of sadness, but its for the better. brought food along and had our picnic there. as usual, i was amazed by the orang utans there. really. the baby orang utan was soooooo cute. i couldnt take my eyes off him for a good 15mins. hehh. friday saw me losing 30 bucks in mahjong to sarah ng. who came over to hall to play with my other hall mates, after our dinner at pre-rouge. its always nice catching up with her. cos we have a lot to talk about.
sat, was spent sleeping in the day since sarah only left in the morn. and i had to rush home. and out in 10 mins. it must be record breaking for me to get dressed so fast. hehh. and off to meet shaun to buy some balls for the bbq at yihao's. nice, small gathering. and i forgot to take photos with loo, jw, yihao and shaun with my polaroid. boo. benny was really funny that night. made me laugh till my facial muscles hurt so bad. and yes, sat was alvins bday all the way at changi. im sorry i ccouldnt be there, but i guess i was left in a position to make a choice between the gathering at yihao's or to go to alvin's party. im not the kind of girl who's fleeting and likes shuttling between places, so i made a choice. and im sorry friends for not turning up. but i figured, being in my situation i would have had more fun at yihao's with the nbs people. and i hope yu guys understand why.
sun, was off to sarah's 21st at her house. and it was really nice of alvyn to drop me back to hall, where we had a super long chat at the porch. not only bitching ya, but serious talk. which i never though i could have with alvyn. hahha. yuve changed dude. and likewise, so have i. no more emo emo. hahah.
then the week started, and its back to projects and presentations again. channel research presentation is tmr. and im still up. oh well, i do hope i get up. sat is gonna be mags and yas's birthday party. :) cant wait to meet the netballers then. :)
term break wasnt very good. feeling so suffocated being in hall already. and dealing with the things i found out. but i guess, its come to make me realise how much ive changed in these past 6 months. growing more independent, like before, way way before. being myself. cos nowadays i cant give 2 fucks if people wanna judge me anymore based on what i do. standing up for myself, and dealing with my own shit myself. :) it makes me happy being who i am. thank god we didnt get stuck in that rut almost 2 years back. thank you. but its a pity, it had to be you. but yes, im more cynical now. dont know if its a bad thing actually. cos i feel liberated nowadays. life feels good. the air smells fresher. hahha. :)
oh oh oh, i forgot to mention my bro's and his gf's 19th birthday at her house. it was fantastic. as much as i thought i wouldnt enjoy it, i went for my bro. and i enjoyed it. maybe cos i got high. so i became friendly. hehh. and talked to his friends who mostly told me they thought i was really fierce last time when they used to come to the house. and they're not wrong! hahha. i am really unfriendly. but ya, i wish i had photos of that night to upload, sadly i dont. if i do get my hands on them, i def will. cos the tent was awesome. the general deco was great. :)
now, for some rest i desperately need. its been a long long post of updates. this year is the year of the 21st's, but this month takes the title for the month of 21st's. i dont think i cant make it to everyones birthday considering its all on the weekends. and shuttling two and fro, isnt what i like to do at all. well well, another update for photos soon.
i wanna cook pancakes and eattttttttt. boo. nights!
to complete her celebration, we went to the zoo zoo zoo. :) got the pics alr, but ill upload another time. i was glad to go there. last destination to replace memories with other ones. and it felt good. :) finally. everything gone. a tinge of sadness, but its for the better. brought food along and had our picnic there. as usual, i was amazed by the orang utans there. really. the baby orang utan was soooooo cute. i couldnt take my eyes off him for a good 15mins. hehh. friday saw me losing 30 bucks in mahjong to sarah ng. who came over to hall to play with my other hall mates, after our dinner at pre-rouge. its always nice catching up with her. cos we have a lot to talk about.
sat, was spent sleeping in the day since sarah only left in the morn. and i had to rush home. and out in 10 mins. it must be record breaking for me to get dressed so fast. hehh. and off to meet shaun to buy some balls for the bbq at yihao's. nice, small gathering. and i forgot to take photos with loo, jw, yihao and shaun with my polaroid. boo. benny was really funny that night. made me laugh till my facial muscles hurt so bad. and yes, sat was alvins bday all the way at changi. im sorry i ccouldnt be there, but i guess i was left in a position to make a choice between the gathering at yihao's or to go to alvin's party. im not the kind of girl who's fleeting and likes shuttling between places, so i made a choice. and im sorry friends for not turning up. but i figured, being in my situation i would have had more fun at yihao's with the nbs people. and i hope yu guys understand why.
sun, was off to sarah's 21st at her house. and it was really nice of alvyn to drop me back to hall, where we had a super long chat at the porch. not only bitching ya, but serious talk. which i never though i could have with alvyn. hahha. yuve changed dude. and likewise, so have i. no more emo emo. hahah.
then the week started, and its back to projects and presentations again. channel research presentation is tmr. and im still up. oh well, i do hope i get up. sat is gonna be mags and yas's birthday party. :) cant wait to meet the netballers then. :)
term break wasnt very good. feeling so suffocated being in hall already. and dealing with the things i found out. but i guess, its come to make me realise how much ive changed in these past 6 months. growing more independent, like before, way way before. being myself. cos nowadays i cant give 2 fucks if people wanna judge me anymore based on what i do. standing up for myself, and dealing with my own shit myself. :) it makes me happy being who i am. thank god we didnt get stuck in that rut almost 2 years back. thank you. but its a pity, it had to be you. but yes, im more cynical now. dont know if its a bad thing actually. cos i feel liberated nowadays. life feels good. the air smells fresher. hahha. :)
oh oh oh, i forgot to mention my bro's and his gf's 19th birthday at her house. it was fantastic. as much as i thought i wouldnt enjoy it, i went for my bro. and i enjoyed it. maybe cos i got high. so i became friendly. hehh. and talked to his friends who mostly told me they thought i was really fierce last time when they used to come to the house. and they're not wrong! hahha. i am really unfriendly. but ya, i wish i had photos of that night to upload, sadly i dont. if i do get my hands on them, i def will. cos the tent was awesome. the general deco was great. :)
now, for some rest i desperately need. its been a long long post of updates. this year is the year of the 21st's, but this month takes the title for the month of 21st's. i dont think i cant make it to everyones birthday considering its all on the weekends. and shuttling two and fro, isnt what i like to do at all. well well, another update for photos soon.
i wanna cook pancakes and eattttttttt. boo. nights!
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 3/14/2007 03:58:00 am | Put your comment here
