i havent blogged properly since forever. i remember saying i have photos to upload, and when i went to my blog to check, i havent uploaded them since ages ago!! but been busy..and lazy. :) it takes a looong time to upload photos ya. and the exams are around the corner. need to really pull up the socks. oh ya, and my prof 'wants to have tea with me'. hahha. not really. ive just been mia from tutorials since forever. only been going for ob and 114 cos its in the afternoon. just in time when i awake at 1. hehh. but 830 and 1030 is tooo early. but yes, i went for my first 830 lesson in 3 weeks. hahha. it was a refreshing change! :) hahh.
well, yes. ive been rather down the past few days. this period of feeling down occurs sooo often nowadays. someone tell me why. man. but now all's good. could be better. :) hahha. im dying to let everything out here but i just cant. and people who know me know how im always dying to tell everyone things that are exciting! hahha. but but but..i cant. at least not to some people and not here. so yu can ask me personally. and ill tell yu. i think. hahha. :)
within the span of the past few days, stuff has happened in hall. im quite sad people are leaving. culture's fading. but yu know what. we're gonna do sth about it next year right from FOC. :) we were all taking about it. and its so exciting. hahha. but ya, loo and jingwen leaving was like the saddest thing. esp when they said it was a final decision kinda thing. i thought i'd lose 2 great friends. and i wouldnt be able to go over to their room like 5 times a day and talk nonsense, do stupid things, complain, whine, gossip etc. sigh. pretty sad. but but but but. they said they'll stay. looloo will put her name down but will try going home everyday. and jingwen will stay and they'll move to 36 with us! :) decided o take the second room from the toilet for single room in 36 next sem. :) and yihao and shaun not moving too. but yuankai and alex are going. sigh. it'll be so fun with everyone around. but sometimes yu cant control everything and there's never an ideal situation. but we'll make the best out of what we have. :)
yu know whats funny. im so happy now i wanna talk to sidney and tell him everything. irony of it all. hahha.
well, photos will be uploaded soon! promise.. really. im looking for ward to everything after the exams and next sem. though next sem is like august. hehh. :)
tralalalala... time to watch soccer! :)
well, yes. ive been rather down the past few days. this period of feeling down occurs sooo often nowadays. someone tell me why. man. but now all's good. could be better. :) hahha. im dying to let everything out here but i just cant. and people who know me know how im always dying to tell everyone things that are exciting! hahha. but but but..i cant. at least not to some people and not here. so yu can ask me personally. and ill tell yu. i think. hahha. :)
within the span of the past few days, stuff has happened in hall. im quite sad people are leaving. culture's fading. but yu know what. we're gonna do sth about it next year right from FOC. :) we were all taking about it. and its so exciting. hahha. but ya, loo and jingwen leaving was like the saddest thing. esp when they said it was a final decision kinda thing. i thought i'd lose 2 great friends. and i wouldnt be able to go over to their room like 5 times a day and talk nonsense, do stupid things, complain, whine, gossip etc. sigh. pretty sad. but but but but. they said they'll stay. looloo will put her name down but will try going home everyday. and jingwen will stay and they'll move to 36 with us! :) decided o take the second room from the toilet for single room in 36 next sem. :) and yihao and shaun not moving too. but yuankai and alex are going. sigh. it'll be so fun with everyone around. but sometimes yu cant control everything and there's never an ideal situation. but we'll make the best out of what we have. :)
yu know whats funny. im so happy now i wanna talk to sidney and tell him everything. irony of it all. hahha.
well, photos will be uploaded soon! promise.. really. im looking for ward to everything after the exams and next sem. though next sem is like august. hehh. :)
tralalalala... time to watch soccer! :)
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 3/29/2006 03:55:00 am | Put your comment here
is there anyone, really?
so no one really cares.
well, thats life.
where are yu when i really need yu?
so no one really cares.
well, thats life.
where are yu when i really need yu?
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 3/23/2006 03:11:00 am | Put your comment here
its been a while. :) my life's had its ups and downs this past week. loads of work. and then there's always other stuff to worry about. last fri wasnt too good. but thanks to sandy who was such a great friend. the week has gone by in a whizz. exams are nearing and im pretty much freaking out.
photos to upload of west coast park late night outing, ih dinner, grace's 21st and mag's surprise birthday party. but im too lazy right now. another day perhaps.
a girls night out turned bad. thats last fri. yu know sometimes yu just dont feel like telling some of your friend some things. not because yu dont treat them as your friends but just cos yu dont wanna spoil the time out they were having. i really wanted to stay but i didnt wanna ruin it for them. hence i didnt make a fuss about them going to eat at pepper lunch, whose food i believe ill absolutely hate, and i just left. the urge to cry was so great. it happens when yu feel like, not just one, but basically the more important people in your life let yu down. tell me. who wouldnt have felt the way i felt that night. tears just couldnt stop themselves from running right in the middle of taka, on a friday. which led me calling up sandy in the toilet and just sobbing on the phone so no one else could see this pathetic girl, crying so bad. thanks girl, for just listening to me wail, and just being there, for offering to pay for my cab all the way back and for dinner too. :)
the past week has brought me through much. not only externally but internally. the emotions ive felt, but also what ive discovered about myself and certain decisions in life. good and bad. we always have our views about everything, everyone. friends dont necessarily have the same views about another friend. will it ever become a problem? somehow i feel it will if one's patience runs out. it's something ive always been afraid of. and this coming week doesnt feel right. sigh.
do we have a right to feel disappointed in friends cos we feel they havent been there for us? that yu do so much for them and it's not reciprocated? is it all worth it? is friendship even about doing something and expecting something in return? even if its just about being there for yu? when yuve been selfless to them and they see right through it?
after all, everyone has their own lives to worry about so what's yours to them. we'll end up leading our different lives, ultimately caring for oursleves. its quite scary. i dont want my life to end up that way.
btw, not everything here is in relation to me so dont jump to conclusions or try reading between the lines. :)
this slump wont last. there's always the light at the end of the tunnel. cliche but ah well, heck.
more contact doesnt help. really.
to be continued.
photos to upload of west coast park late night outing, ih dinner, grace's 21st and mag's surprise birthday party. but im too lazy right now. another day perhaps.
a girls night out turned bad. thats last fri. yu know sometimes yu just dont feel like telling some of your friend some things. not because yu dont treat them as your friends but just cos yu dont wanna spoil the time out they were having. i really wanted to stay but i didnt wanna ruin it for them. hence i didnt make a fuss about them going to eat at pepper lunch, whose food i believe ill absolutely hate, and i just left. the urge to cry was so great. it happens when yu feel like, not just one, but basically the more important people in your life let yu down. tell me. who wouldnt have felt the way i felt that night. tears just couldnt stop themselves from running right in the middle of taka, on a friday. which led me calling up sandy in the toilet and just sobbing on the phone so no one else could see this pathetic girl, crying so bad. thanks girl, for just listening to me wail, and just being there, for offering to pay for my cab all the way back and for dinner too. :)
the past week has brought me through much. not only externally but internally. the emotions ive felt, but also what ive discovered about myself and certain decisions in life. good and bad. we always have our views about everything, everyone. friends dont necessarily have the same views about another friend. will it ever become a problem? somehow i feel it will if one's patience runs out. it's something ive always been afraid of. and this coming week doesnt feel right. sigh.
do we have a right to feel disappointed in friends cos we feel they havent been there for us? that yu do so much for them and it's not reciprocated? is it all worth it? is friendship even about doing something and expecting something in return? even if its just about being there for yu? when yuve been selfless to them and they see right through it?
after all, everyone has their own lives to worry about so what's yours to them. we'll end up leading our different lives, ultimately caring for oursleves. its quite scary. i dont want my life to end up that way.
btw, not everything here is in relation to me so dont jump to conclusions or try reading between the lines. :)
this slump wont last. there's always the light at the end of the tunnel. cliche but ah well, heck.
more contact doesnt help. really.
to be continued.
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 3/19/2006 03:54:00 am | Put your comment here
i really dont wanna talk to yu now. not for long. i just dont wanna have anything to do with yu. but then again i do. i know what i should do. i know i shoud just stay away cos im happy this way. but i dont wanna be cut off from your life. i guess ill do whats right.
im happy the way i am. it is a noticeable difference. someone asked me whether i was attached again. im not. but they say its a marked difference in me. i look so much happier now. i should. i should forget things. so dont come talk to me now. cos im feeling sad all over again. cos i just wanna be happy and forget everything.
your thought just kept coming back the past few days cos i needed yu around so badly. i needed someone to talk to and seek comfort in, away from everything that was bothering.
sometimes when poeple dont know the real yu, yure misunderstood. i hate being misunderstood. i hate being judged. but one can never control these factors. we gotta just live with it. and i guess i will.
a part of me really wants to get away from here. away from singapore. go somewhere foreign. somewhere new. enjoy my life and meet new people. start afresh. enjoy my life the way i see meng and betty enjoying theirs in uk and aussie.
there's so much i wanna say. so much to update about in my life. grace's birthday party. the stupid single room deconflict. good stuff. bad stuff. but i seriously dont feel like typing so much today.
my mood's spoilt.
im happy the way i am. it is a noticeable difference. someone asked me whether i was attached again. im not. but they say its a marked difference in me. i look so much happier now. i should. i should forget things. so dont come talk to me now. cos im feeling sad all over again. cos i just wanna be happy and forget everything.
your thought just kept coming back the past few days cos i needed yu around so badly. i needed someone to talk to and seek comfort in, away from everything that was bothering.
sometimes when poeple dont know the real yu, yure misunderstood. i hate being misunderstood. i hate being judged. but one can never control these factors. we gotta just live with it. and i guess i will.
a part of me really wants to get away from here. away from singapore. go somewhere foreign. somewhere new. enjoy my life and meet new people. start afresh. enjoy my life the way i see meng and betty enjoying theirs in uk and aussie.
there's so much i wanna say. so much to update about in my life. grace's birthday party. the stupid single room deconflict. good stuff. bad stuff. but i seriously dont feel like typing so much today.
my mood's spoilt.
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 3/06/2006 08:22:00 pm | Put your comment here
