haha..finally!!!the 2 gruelling days are over..haha.. :) parents had like a million people over the past 2 days so i had to work my guts out..and i oculdnt go out!!:( but it was fun in a way la..okay..another announcement!!a's are over!!!!!!!:) hahahha..im quite relieved..yup..and fri was crazy crazy crazy..i was ding donging between 3 groups of friends..haha..from sending sarah to do her hair at suntec,back to orchard to meet shan shan they all,then to class girls,and finally to the rg netballers..everyone knows about me and him..news does spread far and wide..haha..everyone's response was that they thought of him as bastard just upon looking at him..plehh..i never did see that and i still dont..i guess i do see certain things in him that have opened my eyes but i still dont see him as a bastard..i believe that there's more to him.. :) but its okay la..im over it and damn happy being the old me again.. :) got great friends and stuff.. :)
oh ya..speaking of the millions of people who came over,sat was fun..there were people my age around..and we all just sat down and talked and laughed like crazy..and we decided that we shall all meet up once every month at someones house..haha..yup..it'll be fun! :) and there's this really cute vj guy in the group..haha..who is, not to mention, damned smart and intellectual..as well as sporty and..haii..everything la..haha..i had so much fun yest..and we went to watch shutter at midnight cos they all stayed over..and we took my dad's car out..everyone was smoking..except,me me me!!!haha..yup.. :) i didnt succumb to peer pressure..
oh oh oh, i lost 4 inches off my waist!!! haha..just got back from the tailor and my dress was like dropping off la..haha..my bust also decreased..so the tube just kept falling haha..cool..im losing weight..at all the wrong places though..plehh.. anyways,ive got lotsa time to do whatever i want noww..so much to do in this 2 weeks..woah..oh and im going to langkawi with the class.. :) finally,im happy again..and so so so carefree.. lalalallalalalalalalalalallalala :) :) :) :) :)
tmr is sadaf day so im gonna do whatever i like tmr..haha :):):):) class chalet can jolly well wait till night.. haha..no offence to anyone in class or whatever..so DO NOT take it as a personal attack..i repeat myself, DO NOT take it as a personal attack or even as an attack on the class..cos it isnt..i love the class a lot.. :) esp those who have been there for me; malcolm,shena,xiuyun,cai hui,ben ben ben, sarah, charlotte, faith..yup..that should be it.. :) k..sleepy time..haha..tata..
oh ya..speaking of the millions of people who came over,sat was fun..there were people my age around..and we all just sat down and talked and laughed like crazy..and we decided that we shall all meet up once every month at someones house..haha..yup..it'll be fun! :) and there's this really cute vj guy in the group..haha..who is, not to mention, damned smart and intellectual..as well as sporty and..haii..everything la..haha..i had so much fun yest..and we went to watch shutter at midnight cos they all stayed over..and we took my dad's car out..everyone was smoking..except,me me me!!!haha..yup.. :) i didnt succumb to peer pressure..
oh oh oh, i lost 4 inches off my waist!!! haha..just got back from the tailor and my dress was like dropping off la..haha..my bust also decreased..so the tube just kept falling haha..cool..im losing weight..at all the wrong places though..plehh.. anyways,ive got lotsa time to do whatever i want noww..so much to do in this 2 weeks..woah..oh and im going to langkawi with the class.. :) finally,im happy again..and so so so carefree.. lalalallalalalalalalalalallalala :) :) :) :) :)
tmr is sadaf day so im gonna do whatever i like tmr..haha :):):):) class chalet can jolly well wait till night.. haha..no offence to anyone in class or whatever..so DO NOT take it as a personal attack..i repeat myself, DO NOT take it as a personal attack or even as an attack on the class..cos it isnt..i love the class a lot.. :) esp those who have been there for me; malcolm,shena,xiuyun,cai hui,ben ben ben, sarah, charlotte, faith..yup..that should be it.. :) k..sleepy time..haha..tata..
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 11/28/2004 10:03:00 pm | Put your comment here
just came back from a massage at a spa..heh..finally the hectic week's over and ive been so tensed up and stuff so decided to go to my dad's friends spa..it was damn good..heh..im going there again after a's..just one more paper left!!!cant wait..ive been feeling a whole spectrum of emotions this past week..im happy,yet im not..im contented yet im not..im being optimistic yet im not..plehh..its like i miss him soooo much sometimes,that i just cry myself to sleep..but then i know that i shouldnt yearn for anything cos thats not what i want in the end..its funny the way i think now..i want him yet i dont..cos as much as i want things to work,i know he's not the kind of guy i want to be with forever,unless certain things about him change..which is highly unlikely..its like my hearts with him but my minds telling me its stupid..im gonna get through this..i just hope i wont have to hear anything along the lines of him going after another girl so soon..its just sad..sometime i just long for that hug i get from him whenever im down..but its never there..have this urge of just picking up the phone and giving him a ring when im down but i cant..not anymore..i sense he hates me..which is sad but there's nth i can do..i believe im not hateable but thats my view of myself..not his..plehh
on another note,i went shopping yest..whats new..bought a tube..its very nice!! :) and this freaking ass came up to me to ask me my no.has he even looked at himself in the mirror..yuck..okay..call me superficial,i dont care.. :) tell the whole world if yu want..i dont care..and so i saw a few things more yest which i wanna buy..hmm..i just have to wait..andi cant even go out on sat and sun cos my parents are having like their friends over for dinner on sat and luch on sunday so i have to help..plehh..cant wait for the class girls to come stay over!!:) it was fun the night they came to stay to study..it'll be even more fun after the a's!and i cant wait to meet the serene pple-ninny,meng,yun,jin,dawns and of course betty whom i see very often..haha..and the netballers!!havent seen them in such a long long while.. :) well, im gonna go take a shower now..im oily all over cos the massage..hehh..tata!!
on another note,i went shopping yest..whats new..bought a tube..its very nice!! :) and this freaking ass came up to me to ask me my no.has he even looked at himself in the mirror..yuck..okay..call me superficial,i dont care.. :) tell the whole world if yu want..i dont care..and so i saw a few things more yest which i wanna buy..hmm..i just have to wait..andi cant even go out on sat and sun cos my parents are having like their friends over for dinner on sat and luch on sunday so i have to help..plehh..cant wait for the class girls to come stay over!!:) it was fun the night they came to stay to study..it'll be even more fun after the a's!and i cant wait to meet the serene pple-ninny,meng,yun,jin,dawns and of course betty whom i see very often..haha..and the netballers!!havent seen them in such a long long while.. :) well, im gonna go take a shower now..im oily all over cos the massage..hehh..tata!!
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 11/23/2004 06:08:00 pm | Put your comment here
things get sooo irritating!urgh!why do certain people intervene in my life for no rhyme or reason..probably for the worst?its like mind your own blardy business la!!and if yure reading my blog for no good intentions then just get lost..it doesnt matter what i write if yu dont regard yourself as my friend..poof!!im p;issed im pissed im pissed!!!im fuming!!!!!
anyways, i realised yesterday that there's more in life to be happy about than sulk and be sad..what's gone is really gone..he is gone..i mean if things do change then so be it..but i cant change them and i otta be happy,cos so many things around me can keep me happy! :) yup..went to my parents friends house yesterday..and i met all my friends whom i have grown up with in my younger days..from the days i was running around in my panties and being called 'shut up'..haha..the yearly trips overseas together..yup..it was so different then..but its not like bad now..cos we've all grown up..matured and can interact better..i used to be damn bored most of the time when i was with them cos all the other children were guys and the only other girl around was my sister..yeaa..and they played silly games girls didnt like..hehh..but yest,i could converse freely with everyone..play around and laugh..yup..even down to topics like lit..haha..and i learned that gay-ish guy is sooo smart!!he's like gonna study law in london!!!omg!!!!but he's still gay-ish la..haha..we should meet up more often than like once in a blue moon..yup.. :) such things make me happy..
someitme lately i also realised what matters in the end is family..its like friends are there and stuff..but in the end,for me,its my family who will always be there..even having a boyfriend/girlfriend isnt any gurantee of comfort and someone who can listen to your problems..some are just there to share the good times..i guess if a person loved another wholeheartedly, he/she would be able to listen and share their partners' grief no matter how often it happens..yup..so, ive concluded he's not the right one for me..but i still feel for him and that'll take time to fade..yest made me realise how impt my family can be..and it would be nice if we were close to our relatives..well,highly impossible if they are all over the world except singapore..and the one's in singapore are quite snobish..sighh..
anyways,i guess i wont be able to sat whatever i want like in my most honest manner anymore cos others read my blog for god-knows-what intentions la..plehh..maybe ill shift soon..its not been too long here..but it aint worth it..yup..well,this week's the killer week,so i better get my ass off and study! :)
anyways, i realised yesterday that there's more in life to be happy about than sulk and be sad..what's gone is really gone..he is gone..i mean if things do change then so be it..but i cant change them and i otta be happy,cos so many things around me can keep me happy! :) yup..went to my parents friends house yesterday..and i met all my friends whom i have grown up with in my younger days..from the days i was running around in my panties and being called 'shut up'..haha..the yearly trips overseas together..yup..it was so different then..but its not like bad now..cos we've all grown up..matured and can interact better..i used to be damn bored most of the time when i was with them cos all the other children were guys and the only other girl around was my sister..yeaa..and they played silly games girls didnt like..hehh..but yest,i could converse freely with everyone..play around and laugh..yup..even down to topics like lit..haha..and i learned that gay-ish guy is sooo smart!!he's like gonna study law in london!!!omg!!!!but he's still gay-ish la..haha..we should meet up more often than like once in a blue moon..yup.. :) such things make me happy..
someitme lately i also realised what matters in the end is family..its like friends are there and stuff..but in the end,for me,its my family who will always be there..even having a boyfriend/girlfriend isnt any gurantee of comfort and someone who can listen to your problems..some are just there to share the good times..i guess if a person loved another wholeheartedly, he/she would be able to listen and share their partners' grief no matter how often it happens..yup..so, ive concluded he's not the right one for me..but i still feel for him and that'll take time to fade..yest made me realise how impt my family can be..and it would be nice if we were close to our relatives..well,highly impossible if they are all over the world except singapore..and the one's in singapore are quite snobish..sighh..
anyways,i guess i wont be able to sat whatever i want like in my most honest manner anymore cos others read my blog for god-knows-what intentions la..plehh..maybe ill shift soon..its not been too long here..but it aint worth it..yup..well,this week's the killer week,so i better get my ass off and study! :)
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 11/15/2004 11:04:00 am | Put your comment here
yu know i realised the little things between us are so similar..and maybe some big things..haha..yup..but its just sad that our differences,in your view seem to come in between us more..
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 11/13/2004 09:06:00 pm | Put your comment here
stupid me..me and my warped thoughts..i could just kill myself..i always mislead myself i guess..its no ones fault in the end..but mine..i guess my thoughts allow themselves to be directed in the direction i want it to go..im accepting it slowly i guess..silly me..stupid me..i cant wait for the a's to end and for that day to come soon..only i know whats that day la..hehh..and no,its not the day he'll like get back with me..thats a big NO now..hmm..barely studied..dunno what i wanna do with my life anymore..poof..its gonna be lit lit lit all the wayy..i need to make it through the next few days..argghhh..its getting harder and harder to study la..im getting lazy..plehh..okay..first step i should take is to get off this stupid comp..hehh.. :)
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 11/13/2004 08:54:00 pm | Put your comment here
i so wanna say whats in my heart,what ive wanted to say in a while already..but i cant..wait..maybe i can? hmm..im scared to take any step for it may be the wrong one..if only he could say sth first..
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 11/12/2004 11:13:00 pm | Put your comment here
i so wanna like msg him and talk to him..its sth i gotta control and not let such thoughts affect my decisions cos they may just be the wrong step to take..i was just thinking how nice it would be to go on the langkawi trip and have fun with everyone and him as well.. :( and like enjoy part of the hols with him..he became such a big part of my life that its hard to see everything without him in it..i still always think of buying him stuff..even when i was at cold storage today..but but but..cannot..sighh..i feel like hugging him now and pinching his 'rubbery' cheeks..okay i know thats quite out of point..but its sth i just feel..haha..yea..
-there can be miracles when yu belive though hope is frail its hard to kill-
im happy after dont know how long..maybe its the hope after what he said yest..
-there can be miracles when yu belive though hope is frail its hard to kill-
im happy after dont know how long..maybe its the hope after what he said yest..
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 11/12/2004 08:17:00 pm | Put your comment here
it was so hard to get to sleep last night cos i was happy..funny eh..but finally finally finally,i had the most peaceful sleep in dont know how many days mann.. :) its still CONCENTRATE CONCENTRATE CONCENTRATE and DONT HAVE HOPE DONT HAVE HOPE DONT HAVE HOPE..but i think i do...but i dont wanna be let down..sighh..how now brown cow?hehh..hmm..i miss him sooooo much..yea..but no one will understnad..they'll just think im foolish for loving him after all he's done and the way he treated me..but..aiyah, no one will understand la..yup..i just want him to..but dont know if he would..just came home from tuition..i think tuition is damn fun..mr hashim is so funny with us la..haha..but it was the last tuition today.. :( next few days i gotta get every distraction away,even hari raya..and mug mug mug..yup..coz i havent done anything very productive..hmm..thats it la..gotta go study..
-i miss yu-
-i miss yu-
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 11/12/2004 06:16:00 pm | Put your comment here
betty just went home..so so empty..that how i feel..even with or without people around me..sigh..why does he means so much to me and i dont mean anything to him?hmm..some questions just get left unanswered..if only if only if only..bahhh..i mean after knowing my mistakes i made there's this willingness to change not only for him but for myself..yea..but theres no chance to show him that..no chance at all..i keep thinking what if he'll take me back in my life..but i banish that thought the second after i think about it..hehh..yupp..betty and i were listening to 'have yu ever' by brandy..so fitting..sighh..does he miss me?i dont think its time to let go but ill have to..i wish he doesnt forget me..yeaa..
on another note,i have yet to study in almost 24hr!!!i better get down to doing just that today..yupp..was in sch yest with some of the class people..being with them is so nice..yu..then again..sighh..will not say anything..but ya..so..time to study now!! :)
on another note,i have yet to study in almost 24hr!!!i better get down to doing just that today..yupp..was in sch yest with some of the class people..being with them is so nice..yu..then again..sighh..will not say anything..but ya..so..time to study now!! :)
have yu ever been in love
been in love so bad
yu'd do anything to make them understand
have yu ever had someone steal your heart away
yu'd give anything to make them feel the same
have yu ever search for words to get yu in their heart
but yu don't know what to say
and yu don't know where to start
have yu ever loved somebody so much it makes yu cry
have yu ever needed something so bad
yu can't sleep at night
have yu ever tried to mfind the words
but they don't come out right
have yu ever,have yu ever
have yu ever found the one
yu've dreamed of all your life
yu'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
have yu finally found the one yu've given your heart to
only to find that one wont give their heart to yu
have yu ever closed your eyes and
dreamed that they were there
and all yu can do is wait for that day when they will care..
i gave yu my heart and yuve yet to give it back..i want it back if yu cant let me hold onto yours..miss yu dear...
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 11/11/2004 01:34:00 pm | Put your comment here
its funny how im feeling now..im happy after talking to him like mature adults..hehh..yupp..it kinda doesnt make me worry and upset..a kinda reassurance that ill get through this with not much problem..but but but..im really scared him being nice about things ma build up some hope..so there has to be this constant reminder that dont have hope dont have hope dont have hope dont have hopedont have hope..yea..itll be okay..but there's this tad bit of uneasiness that he may not be like totally honest with me..i kept rattling on and on and his were short replies..yup..sighh..like he didnt like the idea of talking like that..i tried..i dunno what he wants now..him getting the no. of that girl is like kinda an indication that he's moving on..which is sad la..so fast..so soon..well,ill not jump to conclusions..and the thing is he said he hasnt..pleh..dunno what to believe..
im damn confused about life and how i should lead it..how i should make decisions..with my head or heart..but silly me always uses my heart to my own disadvantage and downfall..sighh..i gotta learn to be stronger and not to let pple sway me..and last night made me feel like its so hard to trust pple..and whats with pple finding joy in spreading the news of our breakup?its irritating..urghh..how about i go announce it over the PA system to make them happy?saves them the trouble also..then more pple can probably gloat..i understand why some pple wanted us to breakup cos they felt it wasnt good for me..but what about the others who just wanna gloat?i mean what pleasure are yu deriving from it..screw off la..seriously..last night also made me feel so vulnerable to everything that happens to me..added to the confusion..cried till i had no breath..plehh..and vitimised by pple not involved in this..this r/s is btw sid and i not among like a few pple so let us solve it ourselves..the people i told m side of the stiry to didnt go around victimising or attacking sidney..its a bit brainless..sighh..just upset..but happy cos he was nice..but up set but happy and upse yet happy..yesyes..everyone gets the idea..time to sleep..
im damn confused about life and how i should lead it..how i should make decisions..with my head or heart..but silly me always uses my heart to my own disadvantage and downfall..sighh..i gotta learn to be stronger and not to let pple sway me..and last night made me feel like its so hard to trust pple..and whats with pple finding joy in spreading the news of our breakup?its irritating..urghh..how about i go announce it over the PA system to make them happy?saves them the trouble also..then more pple can probably gloat..i understand why some pple wanted us to breakup cos they felt it wasnt good for me..but what about the others who just wanna gloat?i mean what pleasure are yu deriving from it..screw off la..seriously..last night also made me feel so vulnerable to everything that happens to me..added to the confusion..cried till i had no breath..plehh..and vitimised by pple not involved in this..this r/s is btw sid and i not among like a few pple so let us solve it ourselves..the people i told m side of the stiry to didnt go around victimising or attacking sidney..its a bit brainless..sighh..just upset..but happy cos he was nice..but up set but happy and upse yet happy..yesyes..everyone gets the idea..time to sleep..
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 11/09/2004 11:32:00 pm | Put your comment here
i was coping well,before the fateful night yest..why couldnt yu have let me go on like that..its so hurting..ive cried my eyes out for a near 24 hrs..but i guess it doesnt matter to yu..i wish it did but i doesnt..i gotta keep telling myself ill make it ill make ill make it..i dont need yu i dont need yu i dont need yu..i dont wanna see yu i dont wanna see yu i dont wanna see yu..i came home today and my mum was telling me not to cry over this anymore and god willl punish him for doing this to me..but i dont even want that..really..but my mum probably hates him more than i do..sighh..seriously sidney,dont be such a bastrad to any other girl in your life..ive like totally wasted a day crygin and not studying..plehh..
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 11/09/2004 08:58:00 pm | Put your comment here
so what..yu happy now?yu probably met your aimed..im hurt..yu hurt me real bad..yu heard me cry saying its offensive..happy?where have yu gone?where'e the sidney i used to know?it really does hurt like crazy..do i deserve such things?really..and what..clarence is your manager to coordinate hate msges is it?yayy..well done..i dunno..WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO TO YU??
i dont wanna hate yu..i dont wanna leave this r/s bearing grudges..if only yu could think that way..if only i could get through to yu..whywhywhy??its so unfair..can yu ever imagine being called a whore so spitefully?i mean whywhywhy?god..and thanks to my WONDERFUL dad who just rubs it in..i feel like dying..i really have that feeling so bad..everything seems to suck so bad..who ever goes through a fucking life like mine?i just wanna know why yure mean and hate me so much...i wish i didnt have to see yu ever again..
i dont wanna hate yu..i dont wanna leave this r/s bearing grudges..if only yu could think that way..if only i could get through to yu..whywhywhy??its so unfair..can yu ever imagine being called a whore so spitefully?i mean whywhywhy?god..and thanks to my WONDERFUL dad who just rubs it in..i feel like dying..i really have that feeling so bad..everything seems to suck so bad..who ever goes through a fucking life like mine?i just wanna know why yure mean and hate me so much...i wish i didnt have to see yu ever again..
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 11/08/2004 10:21:00 pm | Put your comment here
let's talk this over
it's not like we're dead
was it something i did?
was it something yu said?
don't leave me hanging in a city so dead
held up so high on such a breakable thread
yu were all the things i thought i knew
and i thought we could be
yu were everything,everything that i wanted
we were meant to be,supposed to be,but we lost it
all the memories so close to me,just fade away
all this time yu were pretending
so much for my happy ending
yu've got your dumb friends
i know what they say
they tell yu im difficult
but so are they
but they dont know me
do they even know yu?
all the things yu hide from me
all the shit that yu do
it's nice to know that yu were there
thanks for acting like yu cared
and making me feel like i was the only one
it's nice to know we had it all
thanks for watching as i fall
and letting me know when we were done..
another apt song..haha..i just it that everything i hear on the radio now appears to relate to my situation..or maybe it's just that im paying more attention to them..haha..yup..gonna go study now..
it's not like we're dead
was it something i did?
was it something yu said?
don't leave me hanging in a city so dead
held up so high on such a breakable thread
yu were all the things i thought i knew
and i thought we could be
yu were everything,everything that i wanted
we were meant to be,supposed to be,but we lost it
all the memories so close to me,just fade away
all this time yu were pretending
so much for my happy ending
yu've got your dumb friends
i know what they say
they tell yu im difficult
but so are they
but they dont know me
do they even know yu?
all the things yu hide from me
all the shit that yu do
it's nice to know that yu were there
thanks for acting like yu cared
and making me feel like i was the only one
it's nice to know we had it all
thanks for watching as i fall
and letting me know when we were done..
another apt song..haha..i just it that everything i hear on the radio now appears to relate to my situation..or maybe it's just that im paying more attention to them..haha..yup..gonna go study now..
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 11/07/2004 11:54:00 am | Put your comment here
i wasted a whole damn day!!!arghh..damn..im so lazy la..ive no motivation what-so-ever..and i actually went to the tanlines sale yest and bought 3 bikinis..namely for the trip..it was so crazy...my god..and the changing rooms had no divisions so everyone could see everyone changing..it was so odd..so i didnt remove my sports bra..haha..hmm..i really wasted today away..talked to betty like 2hrs over la..im crazyy..sigh..cant wait for the a's to end..looking forward to the trip yet not lloking forward to it..yup..faith was saying alvin was at a loss at how to organise certain things cos him and me..sighh..why does he make things odd..i think he hates me..somehow..the way he treats me..yea..but somehow i know deep down his heart he still loves me and misses me but is supressing it..but ill do nothing about it..its up to him..yeaa..it sucks when i see him but when i dont im really okay..cant wait to go have fun with everyone after a's..i really cant wait for the day when i dont have to see him again..just coz it pains to see him..i dont wanna know anything he does coz it'll hurt me..thats all..yea..if only he can act maturely and be nice..not be childish and ignore..nvm la..cant control him..yup..well,i better get going to do some a&c :)
do yu ever feel like breaking down
do yu ever feel out of place
like somehow yu just dont belong
and no one understands yu
do yu ever wanna run away
do yu lock yourself in your room
with the radio on turned up so loud
so no one hears yu screaming
no yu dont know what its like
when nothing feels alright
yu dont know what its like to be like me
to be hurt to feel lost to be left out in the dark
to be kicked when yure down
to feel like yuve been pushed around
to be on the edge of breaking down
when no one's there to save yu
no yu dont know what its like
welcome to my life
what an apt song..
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 11/06/2004 05:55:00 pm | Put your comment here
what an eventful 2-3 weeks..an emotional rollercoaster for me indeed..im full of all kinds of emotions that need to be poured out..i thought ive moved on..yure like a thorin my bloody life noww..always pricking me wherever i go..i can live without yu if yure out of my sight or be diplomatic about our r/s now..like just be friends..why avoid?guilt?i dunno..it pains me to even view things like this..its not easy for me to go to sch for the a's and have yu sit right in front of me yet not bothering..no good luck nothing..thats like worse than enemies..fuckk..yu can happily talk to everyone but not me?what am i?rubbish?noticed how things were in sch today?i keep pretending im happy when yure around..but when yure there im not..just coz yu ignore me..yu make me feel bad about myself,about how things have turned out..when we were together,knowing i was loved by yu made me feel good about myself..never thought ill ever be loved the way yu loved me..yu made me feel good about myself,made me feel pretty..made feel like the happiest girl in the world..now i feel so unpretty,so ugly so fat so lousy..just coz im ignored..see how things went in sch today?yu happily went off to watch a movie with everyone..no one dared ask me to come along..why?have i become an outcast?thanks to yu?just cos they know yu'd probably not want me around..and i wouldnt had gone anyway but its the thought that counts..the actions say it all..at least ive got pple like cai hui and xiu..i couldnt take it in the bus..i just broke down..this is very disheartening to see yu on the days of our paper and have yu act this way..fine,im not over this..but i will get over it..if not for anything but to prove i can do it and i deserve better..thats the only form of consolation i had though i had wished that 'better' was yu..funny thing is yu never even apologised..so thick skinned pple could be i never knew..but i still care..this stupid love-hate r/s i have with yu sucks..its just like mary and tyrone's r/s..just that they can overcome the hate to love and we cant..probably coz they are bound together by the bond of marriage and we were'nt..the parallels and contrasts..yu dont think i dont know certain things yuve done behind my back in which yuve wronged me like recently?but i shant say what..its okay..ill live with it..ill miss your comforting hugs and comfy shoulder to rest upon..well this is a closure to everything..yup..
yu always said i need not know the answers to many things..but hey,it just serves as a closure to everything..but i guess not..yu wont give me that closure..its okay..i wont be selfish..maybe one day your conscience will bite yu..i dunno..and i dunno what yure going through now..well i just hope yu'd do well for your a's..go move on right now,flirt with any girl all yu want..i cant say anything..just says a lot about yourself..well,take care..this is the end..
yu always said i need not know the answers to many things..but hey,it just serves as a closure to everything..but i guess not..yu wont give me that closure..its okay..i wont be selfish..maybe one day your conscience will bite yu..i dunno..and i dunno what yure going through now..well i just hope yu'd do well for your a's..go move on right now,flirt with any girl all yu want..i cant say anything..just says a lot about yourself..well,take care..this is the end..
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 11/04/2004 10:44:00 pm | Put your comment here
