yu're the sunshine of my day. yu brighten up my life.
i hope.
today was oddly nice. coming home for once felt right. never had so nice a stay at home. the laughter just filled the dining room and the car. good day. just hoping this positivity spreads to every aspect of my life. :) and betty just called. nice talking to her. :) thanks for all the advice babe. -no expectations. hehh. and hope yu make the right decision about coming back on the 27th. :)
just a few more hours and my single-for 3 weeks-stint will end. hehh. but im happy.
i hope.
today was oddly nice. coming home for once felt right. never had so nice a stay at home. the laughter just filled the dining room and the car. good day. just hoping this positivity spreads to every aspect of my life. :) and betty just called. nice talking to her. :) thanks for all the advice babe. -no expectations. hehh. and hope yu make the right decision about coming back on the 27th. :)
just a few more hours and my single-for 3 weeks-stint will end. hehh. but im happy.
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 10/30/2005 01:30:00 am | Put your comment here
i got the days all wrong. :( he aint coming back today. its another days wait. bahh. so much for looking forward to it so bad. well, just one day wont kill right?? yup. :)
so it was an unproductive night of studying. barely one chapter of stats done. and 2 of marketing. poof. and and and, i found 2 of the nicest songs everr. they're damn sweet. esp the rascal flatts one. :)
I hate to see you go even thoughI know when you will coming back
It's hard to breathe without you boy
And baby that's a factI know sometimes you have to leave
But I wish that you could stay
Everytime you go away
And the very first time that I touched you babe
Couldn't find the words to say
It sets me free
And everytime that I kiss your lips
Nothing ever tastes it quiet like this
-everytime yu go away-
how apt.
I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you
Every long lost dream lead me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true
-bless the broken road-
this song just pulls at ones heartstrings totally. kept playing it over and over again.
so full of meaning. and so sweet. :)
nights.
so it was an unproductive night of studying. barely one chapter of stats done. and 2 of marketing. poof. and and and, i found 2 of the nicest songs everr. they're damn sweet. esp the rascal flatts one. :)
I hate to see you go even thoughI know when you will coming back
It's hard to breathe without you boy
And baby that's a factI know sometimes you have to leave
But I wish that you could stay
Everytime you go away
And the very first time that I touched you babe
Couldn't find the words to say
It sets me free
And everytime that I kiss your lips
Nothing ever tastes it quiet like this
-everytime yu go away-
how apt.
I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you
Every long lost dream lead me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true
-bless the broken road-
this song just pulls at ones heartstrings totally. kept playing it over and over again.
so full of meaning. and so sweet. :)
nights.
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 10/29/2005 05:48:00 am | Put your comment here
wonder why im awake at this time? cos i havent sleep yet!!!! was studying and had the urge to eat mac's breakfast. so we ordered at 4 am and it only came at 6!!bad bad bad service, urgh!! i was ultra pissed. so, studying is picking up pace. hopefully ill be able to do well.
and guess what? one more day!! :) im anxiously waiting. hehh. :)
getting back fm later. hope to do well. :)
well, time to sleep. nights!!
and guess what? one more day!! :) im anxiously waiting. hehh. :)
getting back fm later. hope to do well. :)
well, time to sleep. nights!!
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 10/28/2005 06:42:00 am | Put your comment here
My first, my last, my everything,
And the answer to all my dreams.
You're my sun, my moon, my guiding star.
My kind of wonderful, that's what you are.
I know there's only, only one like you
There's no way they could have made two.
You're, all i'm living for
Your love i'll keep forever more.
You're the first, my last, my everything.
In you i've found so many things,
A love so new, only you could bring.
Can't you see if you,
You'll make me feel this way,
You're like a first morning dew on a brand new day.
I see so many ways that i can love you,
'till the day i die.
You're my reality, yet i'm lost in a dream.
You're my first, my last, my everything.
:)
And the answer to all my dreams.
You're my sun, my moon, my guiding star.
My kind of wonderful, that's what you are.
I know there's only, only one like you
There's no way they could have made two.
You're, all i'm living for
Your love i'll keep forever more.
You're the first, my last, my everything.
In you i've found so many things,
A love so new, only you could bring.
Can't you see if you,
You'll make me feel this way,
You're like a first morning dew on a brand new day.
I see so many ways that i can love you,
'till the day i die.
You're my reality, yet i'm lost in a dream.
You're my first, my last, my everything.
:)
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 10/24/2005 03:18:00 am | Put your comment here
the exams are aproaching.. too fast!!!!! i thought i could do it at first, but now im faltering. i have to go on though. keep this up. move faster. reach the goal. get the good grades ive never once attained in my life. dont let anything get in my way. not now. like what sandy wrote. friendships, r/s, have all got to be put aside. i know it's hard for me to do that, but im sure deep down there i have the ability to push these aside. i keep thinking how will i cope once sidney gets back? cos i'd wanna spend time with him especially since he's got a whole week off from ocs. but i gotta restrain. just see him twice will suffice. yes. i can go through with it. dont become weak at the last moment. dont give in then and regret it moments later. not gonna go back this coming weekend. have to stay here and make the most of all the time i have. :) get started on stats. if not ill regret forever. yess.. studying is gonna become fun! :)
the weekend was wasted as usual. bahh. studied fm just now but productivity is very low. wanted to finish it today but i coulndt. still have part of debt policy and options. just 2 hours tmr and i should be done. in time to go thourgh everything once again for the test. gonna try to do well. :)
7 days. :)
the weekend was wasted as usual. bahh. studied fm just now but productivity is very low. wanted to finish it today but i coulndt. still have part of debt policy and options. just 2 hours tmr and i should be done. in time to go thourgh everything once again for the test. gonna try to do well. :)
7 days. :)
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 10/24/2005 03:03:00 am | Put your comment here
yesterday was great. an intended mere drop by to nus to see nana ended up with me staying over at kent ridge with bunny. hehh. but its been quite a while since i had this much of fun. went to eussoff to meet nana at first. seeing her room made me exclaim i dont like my hostel room. then we had a really expensive prata dinner at fong seng. 3 pratas for 9 bucks!! oh mann. and nana has the cutest hamster!! had so much fun playing(torturing) it. hehh. we went over to kent ridge to see the rest. first up, char's room. made me exclaim now that i hate my room!! god their rooms are all damn nice la. i want a single room to myself in year 2. hehh. better start chalking up points. then to see faithy liang and bunny. went over to chai's room to talk. talking with them can go on for hours. its been a while since we spent that time together :) though i felt a tad bit bad for imposing on them when they were piled with work. sorry guys!
somehow meeting them made me really happy yet made me a bit sad. cos im like in a different uni, away from everyone of them. making friends in uni is different. they're really lucky to have each other around. :) wish i was there too. being there just one night heightened that feeling. but i guess i just have to make the most of whatever i have now, of whatever situation im in now.
well, 9 days more. im missing him a lot. taking 51 today, and passing by SA, just reminded me of him more. the way we always took 51 home together from school. somehow it induced me to recall ou 2 years back together from the day he told me his feelings. and bunny had to bear with all that i was going on about. sorry babe!! hehh. just want him to get out of the freaking jungle and just a call to me. cos i havent heard from him in a while. :(
time to sleep. fraking stats project tmr.
psst, nana, i want the photos!!send me!!
somehow meeting them made me really happy yet made me a bit sad. cos im like in a different uni, away from everyone of them. making friends in uni is different. they're really lucky to have each other around. :) wish i was there too. being there just one night heightened that feeling. but i guess i just have to make the most of whatever i have now, of whatever situation im in now.
well, 9 days more. im missing him a lot. taking 51 today, and passing by SA, just reminded me of him more. the way we always took 51 home together from school. somehow it induced me to recall ou 2 years back together from the day he told me his feelings. and bunny had to bear with all that i was going on about. sorry babe!! hehh. just want him to get out of the freaking jungle and just a call to me. cos i havent heard from him in a while. :(
time to sleep. fraking stats project tmr.
psst, nana, i want the photos!!send me!!
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 10/22/2005 01:11:00 am | Put your comment here
im happy happy happy. though things arent the best it could be right now, im happy. just because he called! the mere 5 min conversation left me happy. it lifted my spirits. the listening ear for just that 5 mins. the sound advice. :) hee. sadaf's over the moon. just 2 more weeks. i know it'll past fast. and now since im happy, it'll be easier to study! yayy. :)
was a long day today. had accounting lect which was a pure waste of time. then down to the job interview for canvassing. some ushering for a golf tournament in dec. just filling up of application form and taking photo. bah. i had to endure the pain my cramp was causing just to be down for that. poof. got back pretty late. bolied water for hot water bag. and scladed jingwen in the process of tranferring the water into my hot water bag. sorry girl!!rested for an hour hoping the cramps would cease. then it was down to packing the exam good luck packs. thats when i received the wonderful call that made my day! :) packing didnt take that long. after which fm project started calling. and now, here i am. :) it's a happy day and no one can spoil it now. :) :) :)
was a long day today. had accounting lect which was a pure waste of time. then down to the job interview for canvassing. some ushering for a golf tournament in dec. just filling up of application form and taking photo. bah. i had to endure the pain my cramp was causing just to be down for that. poof. got back pretty late. bolied water for hot water bag. and scladed jingwen in the process of tranferring the water into my hot water bag. sorry girl!!rested for an hour hoping the cramps would cease. then it was down to packing the exam good luck packs. thats when i received the wonderful call that made my day! :) packing didnt take that long. after which fm project started calling. and now, here i am. :) it's a happy day and no one can spoil it now. :) :) :)
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 10/18/2005 01:35:00 am | Put your comment here
today was a hard day to get by. when i reached hall, i heaved a half sigh of relief. cos no matter where one may be, no matter how far away one is from the core of your problem, it always follows yu. just in that matter, the matter hovers around me no matter what. sometimes i sit and question, if this is what i egt at this age, whill life become easier when i grow up? will god balance out the pain with happiness? but then again, i doubt so. problems will just come after you in different forms. as you get older, and the more knowledgeable yu get, the more problems yu have. thats my take.
on another note, coming back to hall, i got down to tidying up my room, specifically my table. and boy, it made a whole lot of difference. :) should have taken a photo. hehh. but doubt it will last. i give it 2 days. hehh. the confidence. :) the food i brought to hall got me excited. somehow. dont ask me why. so yes. i got down to eating quite a bit. feeling utterly piggish. poof.
time to catch some sleep before dawn breaks.
on another note, coming back to hall, i got down to tidying up my room, specifically my table. and boy, it made a whole lot of difference. :) should have taken a photo. hehh. but doubt it will last. i give it 2 days. hehh. the confidence. :) the food i brought to hall got me excited. somehow. dont ask me why. so yes. i got down to eating quite a bit. feeling utterly piggish. poof.
time to catch some sleep before dawn breaks.
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 10/17/2005 04:12:00 am | Put your comment here
back home. and when yu're home and there's lots of time on your hand, or rather cos yu dont study there's lots of time on your hand, yu think about him more. and miss him. somehow i dont have a good feeling within me. maybe its the pms-ing thing. let's see whether this feeling tides over in a week or so.
there's so much to study for. i think im quite dead. there's no motivation at all. at a lost of where to start from. the books look very lengthy and too detailed. hard to understand. i need something comprehensive. well, from mon onwards ill be at can b mugging. :)
and im quite worried about netball. dont know whether ill get into the team. im trying pretty hard. but sometimes yu need some help along the way. some guidance. yes. we're being taught the general passing etc etc, but there's no help in terms of position to be played. he coaches some of them in terms of that. but i know nothing about where i stand. in terms of how i play or even what to play. im taking that effort to work hard in wd but i dont know whether its noted. it feels crappy to be in this position. but i havent given up yet. i would have previously, but ive never been in this position before. now i just have to perservere. go for trainings, show my worth and willingness to learn.
well, much to do. much to achieve.its a long road all alone for now. a 17 day wait. :( still waiting.
there's so much to study for. i think im quite dead. there's no motivation at all. at a lost of where to start from. the books look very lengthy and too detailed. hard to understand. i need something comprehensive. well, from mon onwards ill be at can b mugging. :)
and im quite worried about netball. dont know whether ill get into the team. im trying pretty hard. but sometimes yu need some help along the way. some guidance. yes. we're being taught the general passing etc etc, but there's no help in terms of position to be played. he coaches some of them in terms of that. but i know nothing about where i stand. in terms of how i play or even what to play. im taking that effort to work hard in wd but i dont know whether its noted. it feels crappy to be in this position. but i havent given up yet. i would have previously, but ive never been in this position before. now i just have to perservere. go for trainings, show my worth and willingness to learn.
well, much to do. much to achieve.its a long road all alone for now. a 17 day wait. :( still waiting.
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 10/15/2005 12:49:00 am | Put your comment here
he just left today. and as yu can tell it would be 20 gruelling days without him before he comes back and adds that dazzle into my life again. i didnt know i'd be this sadd. it sounds stupid cos he aint going away forever or anything. but when everything in your life seems down. when nothing feels right at all, and he comes in like the saving grace and lifts your spirits, it means a whole lot. it makes a huge difference. it induces this veryveryveryveryvery sad feeling when yu see him going off. its harder being the one who has to do the waiting all the time. and overseas trips just get me worried for his safety. injuries. hornet bites.rotting foot. i hope he'll be okay. i hope he's landed safely. on my way back from the airport, i couldnt help but cry. a lot. but i feel its a good way to let out all that bottled emotion within. and reading that 3 letters made it worse. suddenly i feel lonely and being left out in the big ocean all alone. and yu know who comes to mind in such situations? nana,faith,bunny.
i have to start hitting the books but i feel fatigued. my mind preoccupied with many issues. i still feel like crying and letting out everything. fm book lies open on my lap. right in the middle of chapter 10. but what is chapter 10?i know nothing.
uni can be summed up in this phrase. every man for himself. its a harsh reality.
and hey nana, cheer up k? yu know im here for yu. :) remember to try to separate your emotions from evrything else. :)
i have to start hitting the books but i feel fatigued. my mind preoccupied with many issues. i still feel like crying and letting out everything. fm book lies open on my lap. right in the middle of chapter 10. but what is chapter 10?i know nothing.
uni can be summed up in this phrase. every man for himself. its a harsh reality.
and hey nana, cheer up k? yu know im here for yu. :) remember to try to separate your emotions from evrything else. :)
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 10/11/2005 08:19:00 pm | Put your comment here
Happy 2nd year anniversary baby!
yes..the big bold words above says it all. 6th oct. our anniversary. 2 years is a long time i must say and im very proud of us. to have made it so far. through all those shit. though we didnt get to spend the special day ideally, it meant a lot to me that you waited so patiently for me to finish my netball. saw yu feeling bored at the courts. saw yu bored in my room. and im sorry. but it felt good to have yu wait patiently. to just have yu around me in the things i do in uni for once. :) and thanks for helping me cook. not sure whether yu liked my cooking though. hope yu liked the collage and the card-ish thing. hand made i must add. thanks for all the memories. good and bad cos the bad just made us stronger. thanks baby. i guess everything is summed um in the letter. now yure going off to taiwan. please take care there. and ill be waiting for yu to ocme back. then we can really enjoy ourselves.
been spending quite a bit of time with him this weekend. well not a lot but considerable compared to other weeks. really like the way he plays with me. watched goal and 40 year old virgin together. rather funny. it feels good spending time together. yet, sometimes i just know that our happiness wont last forever. what i mean is that there's bound to be a time when we may just have a quarrel and the cycle may just start. pessimistic some may say? i say its being realistic. its foolish to think happiness will last forever, there's no 'living happily ever after' in real life. hopefully that time wont come soon. :)
im a girl after all. and sometimes i just wanna feel special. i want him to make me feel special sometimes and i just dont get that when i most expect it. it makes me sad sometimes but i take it in my stride. :) im not saying im not happy cos i am. but there's a difference in feeling special and feeling happy. yupp. well, from this week on, its books books and books. ive neglected them for too long. hope i have the discipline to go on.
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 10/09/2005 10:33:00 pm | Put your comment here
i screwed up accounting test!!! argh. how frustrating can things get. ive never felt like this about any exam/test. just shows how badly i want to do well. which i obviously cant anymore. bah. past few days have been spent mainly on the damn accounting quiz. poof.
im done with the collage!! :) gonna get it printed later. hehh. 3 days to complete the frame now. and i think ill get to see him on thurs itself. :)
had a lot to blog earlier but it aint coming out now, for unknown reasons even to myself. time to go jp to print the collage. :) till later!!
im done with the collage!! :) gonna get it printed later. hehh. 3 days to complete the frame now. and i think ill get to see him on thurs itself. :)
had a lot to blog earlier but it aint coming out now, for unknown reasons even to myself. time to go jp to print the collage. :) till later!!
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 10/03/2005 02:46:00 pm | Put your comment here
