im a thorn.
it was weird today. didnt say much, lost the appetite, lost the mood. and amazed at the inconsideration of some people whom im supposed to call my friends, or maybe they were just my classmates.
i feared taking that step to the party, for if i saw them happy, or just saw her, itd make me feel awkward. yet, i went. and she wasnt there. some said he said it was for political reasons, and we all know what that is. i was surprised, that at least there was some consideration into not making me feel awkward, but yet, i was sad. for if i knew my presence would prevent her being there at his party, prevent the person he loved most from being there, i wouldnt have gone. cos ultimately, she makes him happy and should be there to share it, and thats whats important. im sorry for being there.
read somewhere on a friends blog about this thing called love. and how we've come to measure love in the ability to provide, in every sense, financially, emotionally, physically. i find this so true when i reflect on people,friends,whoever, asking me why i love him so much. and every time i said i cant explain it. i never measured it in terms of what he provides me. and im glad in a way. and yet, it makes it so much harder.
but as usual, life goes on. theres a life away from the people who remind me of the past (im sorry friends, if yu are a part of that). a life im satisfied with. cos theres a goal now. something that was hindered back then. well, off to bed.
me-get well soon
yu- happy birthday
it was weird today. didnt say much, lost the appetite, lost the mood. and amazed at the inconsideration of some people whom im supposed to call my friends, or maybe they were just my classmates.
i feared taking that step to the party, for if i saw them happy, or just saw her, itd make me feel awkward. yet, i went. and she wasnt there. some said he said it was for political reasons, and we all know what that is. i was surprised, that at least there was some consideration into not making me feel awkward, but yet, i was sad. for if i knew my presence would prevent her being there at his party, prevent the person he loved most from being there, i wouldnt have gone. cos ultimately, she makes him happy and should be there to share it, and thats whats important. im sorry for being there.
read somewhere on a friends blog about this thing called love. and how we've come to measure love in the ability to provide, in every sense, financially, emotionally, physically. i find this so true when i reflect on people,friends,whoever, asking me why i love him so much. and every time i said i cant explain it. i never measured it in terms of what he provides me. and im glad in a way. and yet, it makes it so much harder.
but as usual, life goes on. theres a life away from the people who remind me of the past (im sorry friends, if yu are a part of that). a life im satisfied with. cos theres a goal now. something that was hindered back then. well, off to bed.
me-get well soon
yu- happy birthday
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 1/13/2007 01:34:00 am | Put your comment here
