i lost the urge to blog for this short period. and ive been too busy. everything's jumping at me now. school, family, friends. i needed space to breathe. many events taking place lately. some i cant even recollect.
its the time of the month soon. and here i am feeling moody and down all over again. this aided by many other reasons. the mother's ill. and i feel bad not being able to be with her much. not being able to take away her pain. cos she means the world to me. and i cant bear to see her cry. to see her putting all her effort in climbing uo the stairs to the bedroom. to see her praying on a chair cos she cant bend. i wish my mum would recover. or at least lessen her pain.
i can never understand how peple can get so selfish that they never consider other people's feelings when making decisions. when throwing their tantrum. when only bothering about what they want and feel. its something i have to learn as well.
and yu. knowing yu has been nice. its been lovely. yu intrigue me with your thoughts, your stories. yu amaze me by how yu know how to lead your life. how to work people. your mind games. hate them, love them. your frankness and how yu still manage to get things your way no matter how frank yu may be. your confidence or over-confidence. what people say about yu. i guess eventually they may be right. well, partly. maybe this is just it. i dont know. i wish not. not yet at least.
someone asked me this. how can yu not love someone who loves yu so unconditionally? i cant answer that cos im trying hard to search for that answer too. and evoked certain emotions i dont want to stir up anymore. but it did. would yu say my love is/was unconditional? i told that friend to go ask yu. yu'd be the best person to know that answer. the question brought about questions ive so been wanting answers to but ill keep them to myself. cos we're all selfish people. we wont think about how the other person feels. we do things for ourselves. we ignore people when we just dont feel like facing things, not considering how upset the other person feels. we say mean things. we turn cold.
and evetually we become skeptical of this thing called love.
its the best and worst thing.
oh,im feeling so moody and emotional.
reccess week. work has to be done. moodiness disappear.
its the time of the month soon. and here i am feeling moody and down all over again. this aided by many other reasons. the mother's ill. and i feel bad not being able to be with her much. not being able to take away her pain. cos she means the world to me. and i cant bear to see her cry. to see her putting all her effort in climbing uo the stairs to the bedroom. to see her praying on a chair cos she cant bend. i wish my mum would recover. or at least lessen her pain.
i can never understand how peple can get so selfish that they never consider other people's feelings when making decisions. when throwing their tantrum. when only bothering about what they want and feel. its something i have to learn as well.
and yu. knowing yu has been nice. its been lovely. yu intrigue me with your thoughts, your stories. yu amaze me by how yu know how to lead your life. how to work people. your mind games. hate them, love them. your frankness and how yu still manage to get things your way no matter how frank yu may be. your confidence or over-confidence. what people say about yu. i guess eventually they may be right. well, partly. maybe this is just it. i dont know. i wish not. not yet at least.
someone asked me this. how can yu not love someone who loves yu so unconditionally? i cant answer that cos im trying hard to search for that answer too. and evoked certain emotions i dont want to stir up anymore. but it did. would yu say my love is/was unconditional? i told that friend to go ask yu. yu'd be the best person to know that answer. the question brought about questions ive so been wanting answers to but ill keep them to myself. cos we're all selfish people. we wont think about how the other person feels. we do things for ourselves. we ignore people when we just dont feel like facing things, not considering how upset the other person feels. we say mean things. we turn cold.
and evetually we become skeptical of this thing called love.
its the best and worst thing.
oh,im feeling so moody and emotional.
reccess week. work has to be done. moodiness disappear.
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 9/25/2006 12:17:00 am | Put your comment here
