everytime this friend comes up to my room and is all unsettled with whats going on in her life, i start feeling unsettled too. i start thinking all over again. not just thinking but wishing sometimes. i admire her for the courage to take that step to let her feelings be known to a person who was once in her life. ill never dare. cos all ill get is ignorance. the words 'disillusional dumb fuck' still linger till this day.
how is it ever possible to forget the feeling one shared with another unless it wasnt true? i can never understand. ive gotta see more of life. sometimes i wanna be adventurous. and the next moment i just wanna be the average girl. and at other times, i wanna hole up in my room.
i blew him off today. and didnt pick up the phone calls and reply the msges after. maybe im not up to it yet? not now. or maybe its just the menses talking.
just before all this shit, life's been great for the past 2 months odd. had lotsa fun with mag,meng, zhen and chelle zouk-ing on weds. it was our way of spending time together. fri was spent at des's hse just before meng left. it was my best night spent in a long time with the rg netballers. everyone was there at some point. what i love abt them is being able to be ourselves. we all have our vices, but i know all of the are good people within. we dont judge each other. we are fucking honest with each other. just sitting by the poolside. accompanied by junk, jack daniels, smokes and great company. :) :) :) then sat was to loof for the air force party thing with mag and chelle. then zouk which was pretty fun. and meng's left. boo. come back soon babe. im missing yu already!
last night was nana's bday celebration at new york new york. food sucked. boo. :( then down to zouk. which i kinda wasnt in the mood for and i got pissed off and somehow just wanted to be alone. met sandy and the rest which provided reprive for a while. and thanks to chengs for sitting outside and speaking to me.
ill upload pics when im feeling up to it. and now im just not. going back to sav tmr. gotta wake at 8. and i have pysche myself for that. hahh. :)
nights people.
current missing list-
betty!!
levina
meng
yu
another yu
how is it ever possible to forget the feeling one shared with another unless it wasnt true? i can never understand. ive gotta see more of life. sometimes i wanna be adventurous. and the next moment i just wanna be the average girl. and at other times, i wanna hole up in my room.
i blew him off today. and didnt pick up the phone calls and reply the msges after. maybe im not up to it yet? not now. or maybe its just the menses talking.
just before all this shit, life's been great for the past 2 months odd. had lotsa fun with mag,meng, zhen and chelle zouk-ing on weds. it was our way of spending time together. fri was spent at des's hse just before meng left. it was my best night spent in a long time with the rg netballers. everyone was there at some point. what i love abt them is being able to be ourselves. we all have our vices, but i know all of the are good people within. we dont judge each other. we are fucking honest with each other. just sitting by the poolside. accompanied by junk, jack daniels, smokes and great company. :) :) :) then sat was to loof for the air force party thing with mag and chelle. then zouk which was pretty fun. and meng's left. boo. come back soon babe. im missing yu already!
last night was nana's bday celebration at new york new york. food sucked. boo. :( then down to zouk. which i kinda wasnt in the mood for and i got pissed off and somehow just wanted to be alone. met sandy and the rest which provided reprive for a while. and thanks to chengs for sitting outside and speaking to me.
ill upload pics when im feeling up to it. and now im just not. going back to sav tmr. gotta wake at 8. and i have pysche myself for that. hahh. :)
nights people.
current missing list-
betty!!
levina
meng
yu
another yu
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 9/29/2006 03:38:00 am | Put your comment here
