last night. well, let me put it this way, ive not been happier since months but then again, its the saddest ive been since that fateful day in november. im so happy we can be friends now. that things are fine between us. and im even talking to yu right now while tears are streaming down my face, in the midst of writing this. seeing yu move on to someone else makes it so clear to me that there's nth left between us. it always hurts when yu love someone so much and its not reciprocated anymore. and now yu know yu just have to bury that feeling deep down within yu cos its not fair to him and the other person. and i guess im happy and contented just being his friend.
when we spoke, i had the urge to cry. my mouth trembling, tears welling up. but i know yu never liked me crying. i dont want yu to think im weak. i didnt want to spoil a friendship so i held it all back at the moment yu told me about the someone else. because i know ill be happy for yu if it brings yu happiness. i guess thats all i need.
the heart pain comes when yu know how much yu love someone, how deep the love is but yu know that at the same time its the end. that your love will never be felt by the other person. but somehow i dont feel sour about it. really. in fact i still feel happy.
its like the best thing ive got to closure, and even better than expected. ive gained a friend. and i feel happy that in some way he cares i guess. even if it may be as a friend. i feel happy that things dont have to be awkward anymore. that the class can be normal in front of both of us.
i need a day or 2 to cry it all out of my system. i have a life waiting for me. it always seems like a dream when theres anything to do with him. maybe its best to think of it that way. just a dream. reality awaits tmr.
i hope yure really happy with your life and all that yu have right now. just know that yu have a friend out there who would be there anytime yu need.
-its over and done but the heartache lives on inside-
when we spoke, i had the urge to cry. my mouth trembling, tears welling up. but i know yu never liked me crying. i dont want yu to think im weak. i didnt want to spoil a friendship so i held it all back at the moment yu told me about the someone else. because i know ill be happy for yu if it brings yu happiness. i guess thats all i need.
the heart pain comes when yu know how much yu love someone, how deep the love is but yu know that at the same time its the end. that your love will never be felt by the other person. but somehow i dont feel sour about it. really. in fact i still feel happy.
its like the best thing ive got to closure, and even better than expected. ive gained a friend. and i feel happy that in some way he cares i guess. even if it may be as a friend. i feel happy that things dont have to be awkward anymore. that the class can be normal in front of both of us.
i need a day or 2 to cry it all out of my system. i have a life waiting for me. it always seems like a dream when theres anything to do with him. maybe its best to think of it that way. just a dream. reality awaits tmr.
i hope yure really happy with your life and all that yu have right now. just know that yu have a friend out there who would be there anytime yu need.
-its over and done but the heartache lives on inside-
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 5/28/2006 11:03:00 pm | Put your comment here
