hi. im back.
exams have come an gone. screwed up most. wont do well. but i cant do anything now. im to blame.
this period of time is almost a copy of last year and i get freaked. i dont want it to go to that stage. sometimes im optimistic sometimes i cant help but fear.i feel stupid.
learnt a whole lot the past 2 weeks. but im still not sure what i want from myself and life. yest at zouk brought out a lot of questions about what i want. who i really wanna be. ive come to conclude there's a lot of sides to me. im me in a lot of different ways. its like a few personalities in one person. i show one as when i feel like it/situation permits. which sounds really stupid. but im beginning to think thats true.
well lets just call one side of me 'a' and the other 'b'. i really wanna be 'a' but im always made to be 'b' cos of the pple around me. they would never understand me being 'a'. well some may say i should just act the way i am. and should let what others think about me. well, i would do that if i just had that little group of friends of mine. i wouldnt give a fuck about eveyone else. but i dont see the same pple in uni. ppof. so thats a jist of my problems. and it would actually be fine if people would accept the 'a' but i know people wont. and now im really lost. its like im losing my identity. i dont know which path i should take.
so with the exams over i should be going out and enjoying my time but im not..whyy? cos there's no one to go out with. how sad. and thats what i get for being in ntu. cos i dont know many people who would do the same things i do here.and i wanna do so many things!!but no one to do with. im beginning to sound pathetic. gosh. can the nus people hurry and finish their exams??
:(
but sometimes some things just dont make yu feel like doing anything.
did imention zouk was fun yest. nice cathcing up with sarah at the wine bar. and meeting a gazzilion people over there though there were some unsightly creatures around too. yuck.
and now im starving. and there's no food. save me please.
exams have come an gone. screwed up most. wont do well. but i cant do anything now. im to blame.
this period of time is almost a copy of last year and i get freaked. i dont want it to go to that stage. sometimes im optimistic sometimes i cant help but fear.i feel stupid.
learnt a whole lot the past 2 weeks. but im still not sure what i want from myself and life. yest at zouk brought out a lot of questions about what i want. who i really wanna be. ive come to conclude there's a lot of sides to me. im me in a lot of different ways. its like a few personalities in one person. i show one as when i feel like it/situation permits. which sounds really stupid. but im beginning to think thats true.
well lets just call one side of me 'a' and the other 'b'. i really wanna be 'a' but im always made to be 'b' cos of the pple around me. they would never understand me being 'a'. well some may say i should just act the way i am. and should let what others think about me. well, i would do that if i just had that little group of friends of mine. i wouldnt give a fuck about eveyone else. but i dont see the same pple in uni. ppof. so thats a jist of my problems. and it would actually be fine if people would accept the 'a' but i know people wont. and now im really lost. its like im losing my identity. i dont know which path i should take.
so with the exams over i should be going out and enjoying my time but im not..whyy? cos there's no one to go out with. how sad. and thats what i get for being in ntu. cos i dont know many people who would do the same things i do here.and i wanna do so many things!!but no one to do with. im beginning to sound pathetic. gosh. can the nus people hurry and finish their exams??
:(
but sometimes some things just dont make yu feel like doing anything.
did imention zouk was fun yest. nice cathcing up with sarah at the wine bar. and meeting a gazzilion people over there though there were some unsightly creatures around too. yuck.
and now im starving. and there's no food. save me please.
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 11/18/2005 01:40:00 am | Put your comment here
