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Thursday, March 03, 2005

training on tues..didnt enjoy it too much..im really not sure what i want from netball anymore..a part of me wants to quit,but i wanna play the game..but not in that manner..the pressure, the inferiority, the inability to fit in..ill miss the sa girls if a quite for sure..playing with them has been a joy..but its different now..they're all fitting into the team and doing well..on the other hand there's me..aimlessly wandering..dont really know what im doing in the team..i felt like crying real bad after training..cos nth seemed right at all..just causing my body extra pain..it still hurts so bad..climbing up and down the stairs in the house is a torture..seriously..

then it was chinablack and zouk last night..to party away all the worries as the results await..was really fun..esp at zouk..some of the girls came over to stay..i enjoyed my time girlies..we should do this more often..just the few of us..girls only night.. :) cutting hair with charlotte before results tmr..im really crossing my fingers..good luck to everyone yar..

wanted to spend saturday with him,but now ive gotta go for the catwalk training thing for singapore fashion week thanks to my bro..so its only dinner with him..sighh..this week has been pretty topsy turvy..i just pray that things will go well from here on in my life in general..

lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 3/03/2005 11:51:00 pm | Put your comment here