its christmas eve..nearing christmas..and im spending it at home.amidst family members who really dont give a shit about anything..i wonder whether new years eve will be the same..i hope nor..somehow i just dont feel the warmth and love one feels during this season..funny aint it..i always associate christmas with the surroundings covered in blankets of snow..a nice cosy house, with a fireplace..and all i wanna do is cuddle up in front of the fire place with my loved one..of course accompanied by the bottle of wine..and the christmas tree by the side with presents underneath for me to open..heh..a blend of the child and adult in me..but but but..yu dont get a fireplace here and definitely no snow..and no house of my own to spend my time with my loved one..and the loved one is kinda mia..so ya..i just dont feel anything this year..im numbed..sometimes i just wanna be loved dearly by him..when i said those things i did in the taxi,i was expecting some words of comfort and encouragement to let me knoe he's there..but i was met with irritation more than anything..sighh..this aint good..and i hate keeping it from him..
well, merry christmas people..i hope yu guys have a better christmas where ever yu are,who ever yure with.. :)
well, merry christmas people..i hope yu guys have a better christmas where ever yu are,who ever yure with.. :)
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 12/24/2004 11:35:00 pm | Put your comment here
