just came back from a massage at a spa..heh..finally the hectic week's over and ive been so tensed up and stuff so decided to go to my dad's friends spa..it was damn good..heh..im going there again after a's..just one more paper left!!!cant wait..ive been feeling a whole spectrum of emotions this past week..im happy,yet im not..im contented yet im not..im being optimistic yet im not..plehh..its like i miss him soooo much sometimes,that i just cry myself to sleep..but then i know that i shouldnt yearn for anything cos thats not what i want in the end..its funny the way i think now..i want him yet i dont..cos as much as i want things to work,i know he's not the kind of guy i want to be with forever,unless certain things about him change..which is highly unlikely..its like my hearts with him but my minds telling me its stupid..im gonna get through this..i just hope i wont have to hear anything along the lines of him going after another girl so soon..its just sad..sometime i just long for that hug i get from him whenever im down..but its never there..have this urge of just picking up the phone and giving him a ring when im down but i cant..not anymore..i sense he hates me..which is sad but there's nth i can do..i believe im not hateable but thats my view of myself..not his..plehh
on another note,i went shopping yest..whats new..bought a tube..its very nice!! :) and this freaking ass came up to me to ask me my no.has he even looked at himself in the mirror..yuck..okay..call me superficial,i dont care.. :) tell the whole world if yu want..i dont care..and so i saw a few things more yest which i wanna buy..hmm..i just have to wait..andi cant even go out on sat and sun cos my parents are having like their friends over for dinner on sat and luch on sunday so i have to help..plehh..cant wait for the class girls to come stay over!!:) it was fun the night they came to stay to study..it'll be even more fun after the a's!and i cant wait to meet the serene pple-ninny,meng,yun,jin,dawns and of course betty whom i see very often..haha..and the netballers!!havent seen them in such a long long while.. :) well, im gonna go take a shower now..im oily all over cos the massage..hehh..tata!!
on another note,i went shopping yest..whats new..bought a tube..its very nice!! :) and this freaking ass came up to me to ask me my no.has he even looked at himself in the mirror..yuck..okay..call me superficial,i dont care.. :) tell the whole world if yu want..i dont care..and so i saw a few things more yest which i wanna buy..hmm..i just have to wait..andi cant even go out on sat and sun cos my parents are having like their friends over for dinner on sat and luch on sunday so i have to help..plehh..cant wait for the class girls to come stay over!!:) it was fun the night they came to stay to study..it'll be even more fun after the a's!and i cant wait to meet the serene pple-ninny,meng,yun,jin,dawns and of course betty whom i see very often..haha..and the netballers!!havent seen them in such a long long while.. :) well, im gonna go take a shower now..im oily all over cos the massage..hehh..tata!!
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 11/23/2004 06:08:00 pm | Put your comment here
