its funny how im feeling now..im happy after talking to him like mature adults..hehh..yupp..it kinda doesnt make me worry and upset..a kinda reassurance that ill get through this with not much problem..but but but..im really scared him being nice about things ma build up some hope..so there has to be this constant reminder that dont have hope dont have hope dont have hope dont have hopedont have hope..yea..itll be okay..but there's this tad bit of uneasiness that he may not be like totally honest with me..i kept rattling on and on and his were short replies..yup..sighh..like he didnt like the idea of talking like that..i tried..i dunno what he wants now..him getting the no. of that girl is like kinda an indication that he's moving on..which is sad la..so fast..so soon..well,ill not jump to conclusions..and the thing is he said he hasnt..pleh..dunno what to believe..
im damn confused about life and how i should lead it..how i should make decisions..with my head or heart..but silly me always uses my heart to my own disadvantage and downfall..sighh..i gotta learn to be stronger and not to let pple sway me..and last night made me feel like its so hard to trust pple..and whats with pple finding joy in spreading the news of our breakup?its irritating..urghh..how about i go announce it over the PA system to make them happy?saves them the trouble also..then more pple can probably gloat..i understand why some pple wanted us to breakup cos they felt it wasnt good for me..but what about the others who just wanna gloat?i mean what pleasure are yu deriving from it..screw off la..seriously..last night also made me feel so vulnerable to everything that happens to me..added to the confusion..cried till i had no breath..plehh..and vitimised by pple not involved in this..this r/s is btw sid and i not among like a few pple so let us solve it ourselves..the people i told m side of the stiry to didnt go around victimising or attacking sidney..its a bit brainless..sighh..just upset..but happy cos he was nice..but up set but happy and upse yet happy..yesyes..everyone gets the idea..time to sleep..
im damn confused about life and how i should lead it..how i should make decisions..with my head or heart..but silly me always uses my heart to my own disadvantage and downfall..sighh..i gotta learn to be stronger and not to let pple sway me..and last night made me feel like its so hard to trust pple..and whats with pple finding joy in spreading the news of our breakup?its irritating..urghh..how about i go announce it over the PA system to make them happy?saves them the trouble also..then more pple can probably gloat..i understand why some pple wanted us to breakup cos they felt it wasnt good for me..but what about the others who just wanna gloat?i mean what pleasure are yu deriving from it..screw off la..seriously..last night also made me feel so vulnerable to everything that happens to me..added to the confusion..cried till i had no breath..plehh..and vitimised by pple not involved in this..this r/s is btw sid and i not among like a few pple so let us solve it ourselves..the people i told m side of the stiry to didnt go around victimising or attacking sidney..its a bit brainless..sighh..just upset..but happy cos he was nice..but up set but happy and upse yet happy..yesyes..everyone gets the idea..time to sleep..
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 11/09/2004 11:32:00 pm | Put your comment here
