life's so sickening..urghh..ive got a screwed up r/s,a screwed up family who instead of giving me support always makes things worse for me..like my dad..bahh..yesterday, he kept going on and on about MY BF..right..what bf..which bf..theres actually a bf?great..he was just rubbing a whole kg of salt on my wound..and my mum says why bother over a guy who has always made me cry..but she just doesnt see it..yes,i admit he's made me cry like hell all the time but he's also made me happy..and i know i must let go..i just want it to be at a time when i dont have to see him anymore..not for long..yup..
on a lighter note or rather another note, i went for the aussie uni open day thingy..i really wanna go either anu or uni of sydney for econs..and i really wanna leave singapore la..but my dad says no money..he can send my damn sis overseas but not me..bahh..i dont wanna stay here and suffocate myself to death..life over there seems more appealing to me..the people, the environment, the lack of him..not that the lack of him is appealing..dont get me wrong..just that him not being there and not close will help me get over him and move on..
and im actually considering being an air stewardess for a while..haha..venturing out ..seeking some different kind of experience..and ill get to see the world..hmm..not bad eh..and shopping..haha..well, i better go hit my books now to make up for what i havent done..
something else is bothering me real bad..and it sucks for everything to topple at once..well..till the next complaining session..
on a lighter note or rather another note, i went for the aussie uni open day thingy..i really wanna go either anu or uni of sydney for econs..and i really wanna leave singapore la..but my dad says no money..he can send my damn sis overseas but not me..bahh..i dont wanna stay here and suffocate myself to death..life over there seems more appealing to me..the people, the environment, the lack of him..not that the lack of him is appealing..dont get me wrong..just that him not being there and not close will help me get over him and move on..
and im actually considering being an air stewardess for a while..haha..venturing out ..seeking some different kind of experience..and ill get to see the world..hmm..not bad eh..and shopping..haha..well, i better go hit my books now to make up for what i havent done..
something else is bothering me real bad..and it sucks for everything to topple at once..well..till the next complaining session..
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 10/16/2004 09:12:00 pm | Put your comment here
