i was wrong to do what i did..and im sorry..honestly,genuinely sorry..i guess i have to accept the outcome of this and learn to let go..its hard..it really is hard..but sometimes things dont go your way and i guess i have to accept it..i just realised that what i did proved so many of his points..i was really giving him no choice and trying to move this whole situation towards one direction..i shouldnt do that..it was selfish and i didnt look at what he wanted,or rather doesnt want..i hope things go well from here..i cant concentrate on my work yet..i hope ill get my life back on track soon..i need to get away from things after the a's..i tried talking to my mum about going overseas to pursue my studies coz i really wanna be independent,do things myself,not rely on others and start anew..i need to get away from here..from him..just the fact that he's near yet far..yup..i hope my dad will agree to it..yup..ill miss him lots..thats for sure but i cant have somethings that not mine or doesnt want me..
hey..if yure reading this..im sorry..i am..like i said in my msg..i realised that this cant just go my way..if your happiness lies in ending this r/s,ill respect it..and hey,probably it'll be better for me..as in i may just find someone more suited for me..and like i said last night..when we do go our separate ways, i wont be able to see yu for a while in order to help me get over this..thats why i'd prefer ending everything once we dont have to meet anymore, when our paths wont cross for long..what to do..yu're my first..and i was so naive about how r/s work..i thought that no matter what i do or how bad we argue things will be fine in the end..i was wrong..i never saw the possibility of this r/s ending as so real..but it is..it's so real that it's staring me straight in the eye,waiting to eat into me bit by bit..but hey,hopefully this is just will not last long..we'll be friends k..ill still be here for, looking out for yu as a friend..it kinda feels like things are over already..bahh..well,take care my dear.. :)
hey..if yure reading this..im sorry..i am..like i said in my msg..i realised that this cant just go my way..if your happiness lies in ending this r/s,ill respect it..and hey,probably it'll be better for me..as in i may just find someone more suited for me..and like i said last night..when we do go our separate ways, i wont be able to see yu for a while in order to help me get over this..thats why i'd prefer ending everything once we dont have to meet anymore, when our paths wont cross for long..what to do..yu're my first..and i was so naive about how r/s work..i thought that no matter what i do or how bad we argue things will be fine in the end..i was wrong..i never saw the possibility of this r/s ending as so real..but it is..it's so real that it's staring me straight in the eye,waiting to eat into me bit by bit..but hey,hopefully this is just will not last long..we'll be friends k..ill still be here for, looking out for yu as a friend..it kinda feels like things are over already..bahh..well,take care my dear.. :)
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 10/14/2004 06:41:00 pm | Put your comment here
