and so my day out today has ended so early..what can i say..it was enjoyable..did sth i wouldnt normally do with him..wanted to spend more time together..but oh wel,i cantcontrol that..thanks for the flowers..there were really pretty..too bad yu didnt give me sth i can keep forever to remember this day..and ive come to realise this-never expect anything coz most of the time yu'll always be let down..its silly, but its due to the stupid expectations set..bahh..was i stupid or what..anyways as i was saying,the day went fairly well..save for a few things..which shall not be mentioned..ill have to drag my ass out of bed early tmr to go to sch..finally..after a week of absence..i regret not going to sch today..badbad choice..thought that going out today would take up the whole day..but it didnt..should have gone to sch first..bahh..now just have to concentrate on my studies..block out every other thought that bothers me which yu fail to ease me of..suddenly i feel like crying..this sudden urge has just overwhelmed me so greatly and its just hard to put down in words why..im plagued with so many disturbing thoughts..is it fair that my feelings arent exactly reciprocated?i dont know..it really seems unfair now..ive always accepted that but now i begin questioning this..this is badd..i must stop..if only.....
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 10/06/2004 06:40:00 pm | Put your comment here
