last night was bad..got a knife pierced through my heart just as i was about to sleep..think your reason for wanting to give things one more shot was selfish..sighh..now my mind cant rest..it just keeps thinking..thinking of how i can make things better and make yu love me as much as i do..i dont wanna give up on this r/s..i really dont..i think we brought ourselves and this r/s to the state it is..we can bring it back out of this low point by making an effort..arfter the prelims or a's though..but we can..if yu just try..a bit..for me..yu know i never believed anyone could love methe way yu did..or at least love me at all..i was insecure about myself..but yu made me realise that i could be worth loving..brought me out of that insecure nature of mine..and made me confident..just when i do start feeling confident,yu're making me feel like someone not worth loving..really..makes me feel i should have stuck to my principals about a lot of things..not entered this game of love..well,im just wishing things can get better..being optimistic but at the same time scared yu may just want out anytime..i wanna feel good about this r/s at least for a while..make me feel good?for the little love yu have for me?now its time to concentrate on prelims..hope i can..i try to hold back my tears..try to tell myself nothing's wrong..and when things just add on one over another, i cant help it..when my dad is so unsupportive of my studies but ends up scolding me,i feel weak coz my mind's on yu and am already not feeling good..gonna tell myself to be strong.. :)
gonna go study noww..dunno where though..hope the library's open..till later..
gonna go study noww..dunno where though..hope the library's open..till later..
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 8/22/2004 12:10:00 pm | Put your comment here
