it's the first post..haha..this computer illiterate has decided to venture into blogging..wonder how it'll go.. :) and i shouldnt even be bloging at this point in time considering the prelims are freaking close..well, just need an avenue to let things out other than going to friends..it's been a very emotionally taxing weekend..how i wish things could change..yu'll never know how i feel for yu..how much yu mean to me..even telling yu this doesnt shake yu..ive lost yu..yure so far out of reach now that nothing can bring yu back to me,to make yu love me the way yu did..those dreams in my mind-of yu and i-..i want to do so many things with yu but will never be able to..our little botanical garden picnic?going cycling together?going to the telok kurau park?going on a holiday together?everywhere i went to get yu out of my mind,my system failed miserably..everyplace reminded me of yu..suntec macs-does that ring a bell?those blue roses from the florist above?marche at suntecs?the viewing gallery at the airport?the breakfast with your family at bk?have yu forgotten the wonderful memories of us together??it hurts so bad..if only yu'd care more..i wish i could make yu care more but just doesnt work that way..i cant imagine life without yu now..i had plans for us..they'll never go through..i cant even blame myself for making the decision i made and i cant regret it coz even if i didnt make the decision i made, yu would have delivered it to me in due time, and between that time and now, ill just be in pain..but knowing now what the problem is..im gonna try..try to rekindle the love for me..be accomodative and compromise on my values..as i say all this, tears are streaming down un controlably..it hurts..and what great timing for this to happen..or more like why is it happening at all?where did we go wrong?where did i go wrong?yu were so blunt that those tears just kept flowing..yu were so mean for some time and i felt angry and sad but compromised in the end..ive sacrificed so much..why then do yu still not love me?yu leave a vaccuum in my heart..a lpace no one would be able to fill for a long time.
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 8/08/2004 08:01:00 pm | Put your comment here
