and so..everything ends..a big part of me is lost..its so hard to even face yu in sch..just looking at yu being all happy with everyone else,even to the most disgusting of pple..and yet,yu dont say a word to me..words that just may help me tide through this..but yu just kinda ignore me..i wanna talk to yu but im scared..i really do hope we can be friends but how do i change they way i see yu..the way i feel for yu..the way i act around yu??even though we arent together anymore, i cant just change my feelings for yu..it aint gonna happen anytime soon..so how do i talk to yu?i cant play with your hair anymore, lean on yu, hold your hand, hug yu..i still think of yu in everything i do..ive not even complained about they way yuve treated me after this has ended, all i asked for was an apology, but yu never even said those words..yu never even bothered when i was ill..all yu could say was that i always bring things upon myself..maybe we're really not meant to be together for all that ive had to put up with and for all that yuve never done done for me..but that doesnt matter to me..yu'll never know what im going through..on top of this i have to face other problems which to yu, yu see as things i brood over for no rhyme or reason..try having your uncle scream at yu in public for a mere phone call just because he hates yu..yu'll never experience that..yu never know how much ive been scolded because of yu..how much ive fought with them for yu..but for what?nth..sometimes i want yu to know these things..but of what use is that going to be?i still have questions in my mind..but when i ask yu certain things yu never reply..sighh..but ive decided to get over this however long it may take me..it wont change my feelings for yu but ill be your friend..i wish we could be more than that ut its not up to me..its not a thought ill keep..i just hope ill still get to spend time with yu and enjoy ourselves more than fighting like we used to..wish i could still look out for yu the way i did..i have yet to figure what about me do yu see yourself not wanting to spend your future with..i need to know..i want to know..i still love yu..
lifted a burden off her shoulders @ 8/11/2004 07:27:00 pm | Put your comment here
